The Ramblings of an Innocent Mind

Ho hum

So Happy V-day to all.  Hopefully it was better for some than for those of us who are single and actually give a shit.

This week is insane and filled to the brim with homework and tests.  Let alone the other mind and time consuming things.

Boy is comin up this weekend.  I'm excited.  Party with my little bro :) Woo.

Tis all for now

and it continues

I have the worst timing ever.  Why does it always have to be something?  Making things that you want just out of u'r reach...

damn it

:(

I know that I should just accept it.  But you know me....it's not possible and yet there's nothing that I can do about it.  And maybe there's nothing I should do about it...

Ug

Sometimes people just need to get over themselves and grow up....

Cocktail Party last night was lots of fun.  Met some people that I will def. have to hang out with again.  Lots of pictures to remember the night by too!  Good times.

I need to get some long overdue errands done tomorrow.

Tis all. Night

Paused...

Lots of things seem to be on Pause right now. 

I need stuff to do this weekend and for the rest of the time I have left before school starts again.  So if n e one has ideas, pleaassseee let me know!


I'm tired. Time for bed.

phew...

So there finally seems to be a calm in the storm of drama.  It's all coming to a sort of stand still I guess and U HAVE NO IDEA HOW RELIEVED I AM.  Feels like a whole weight has been taken off my shoulders for a while.  It's nice.  Good good.  So lunch with ms. shannon tomorrow! Yay! I haven't seen that girl in like more than a year.  it's insane.  n e way, then boys bb game on Sat with Haase...no drama, i hope. and who knows what else so if n e one wants to do n e thing then let me know!

Ooo and if i suddenly dissapear, its cuz I managed to stuff myself into Leen's suitcase and I'm in Kuai (however u spell that).
 

no worries

K so I just wanted to let everyone know that I am doin fine.  I know that my entries from the past month have been well depressed and shitty sounding.  But really I am just using this as a venting place.  So yes, i am fine, Things are fine, and yeah.  Just keep in mind that when I write in here i'm usually just fed up with life in general and need somewhere to get it off my chest. 

FOCO

It was good to be back in FOCO for a little bit today.  Nice to have that kinda getaway.  Plus I got to hang with Leen so yeah.  BTW I hate her cuz she gets to go to Kawaii.  Pooooo on u.  I think I'm gonna try to be back up here for the semester by Thurs night of next week.  That'll give me a good 4 days to get food and such back in to the appt.  Our kitchen smells like shit pretty much cuz we were too lazy to clean it out before we left for break.  Good times.  Um so yeah I guess that's it really.  Only a little over a week till the normalness begins again.

...

I'm just so exausted.  With everything.  I hate that no matter how far I go to get away from the drama, it seems to find me.  The year is starting out with just as much as last year ended with which is very frustrating.  I'm ready to get back to school.  Back to life up there.  Back to some kind of normalness.  Even home isn't far enough away from the drama n e more.  I miss things.  And I don't know if it's cuz everything sucks right now or if it's cuz I'm just finally realizing certain things.  Either way its confusing as hell and I just want to figure it out.

Probly goin up to FOCO Tues to get some stuff and just get that escape.  2 weeks of break left and then time for a whole new semester with hopefully all new good things and adventures and memories.  here's to crossing my fingers and kicking the shit in the balls.  I'm determined to make this year better than last.

so it goes

Tonight was bittersweet....that is a good word.

why...

And yet things still find a way of getting worse....

I hope that 2006 is better than 2005 was.

good lord

There has been more absolute crazyness in the last two nights than ever before in my entire life.  I swear the 4 of us together are bad luck.  I don't even know what to think.  How do things get so complicated so fucking fast? 

hm yes

Wow.  These last few weeks have been rather eventful in some ways and in others they haven't been so much. So much drama as usual. I swear I cause it if it doesn't follow me anyway.  N e who, christmas was good. Here's the list:
- 3 new jackets, yes 3 they are all for different occasions and such
- money
- one of those high powered toothbrushes that vibrates your entire head when you turn it on
- movies
- a pink fuzzy pillow (like I need another pillow ;) )
- random candy and such

All in all a good amount of stuff.

So my tire is still messed up and so I have to figure out when to get that fixed so that I can drive on it for the rest of the week.  Poo on tires.

I got called a 2nd grader cuz I called someone a poo head yesterday.  Hahahahahaha.

Only 2 1/2 weeks left of break.  Hopefully they are less dramatic than the first week has been :)

yup

Another long day at the office.  Actually had stuff to do today though so that's nice.  Although now I'm done with everything so back to being bored and doin nothing productive.  O well.  N e who, last night I feel asleep on the couch at like 6, woke up at 8 and got in bed.  Didn't fall back asleep till around 10 or so, but overall a very good nights sleep.  I wasn't even that hard to get up at 7 this morning.  Amaizing ain't it? I gotta start goin to be that early more often...haha yeah like that will happen.  Tonight is dinner with Dad's office and then back home for more lounging I guess. 

Things I need to accomplish this week:
1- Make plans with Corrie, Haase, and Justin, and whoever else
2- Finish my christmas shopping
3- try to catch up on some sleep

Things will be ok...just breath.

yup

This week hasn't been so great.  For one reason in particular.  Blah.

Starting workin at Gap yesterday again.  It was crazy but it's good to be back I guess.  Workin at Dad's today and I"m already bored outta my mind.  And I have no willingness to work right now either, I just wanna curl up in bed and sleep.

Work and more work this week then Christmas.

yup it's time

Yup, it is definatly time to go home and get away from everything.  Thank God the semester is over finally.  This has been the shittiest semester ever.  So cheers to some good ol' time at home with the family :)

A little over a week till Christmas :)

Finals and such

So finals have definatly begun.  Puke.  One down and 3 to go.  I got an 84% on the one today, which was worse than I thought I did, but I finally beat Windee.  So overall I end up with an 83% in the class.  A little dissapointing but still a B so I guess I can deal with that.  My test tomorrow is one of my harder ones, and I can't seem to make my mind just relax enough to study.  I have studied a little bit, but probly not enough for a grade I would be happy with.  Either way, I only need to get a 65 on the test to keep a B in the class, and even if I get a 100 on the test I'll still have a B.  So I'm not too worried about it.  Either way, wish me luck tomorrow.  I will have lots of time to study for my next test after that and then again not much time to study for the last one, but I will do what I can.

Things are so complicated and confusing right now.  I so need this break to just let my mind relax and spend some time away from school.  Need some time to get some perspective on things too.

Good luck to everyone on finals this week!  Yay! It's almost over!

This is creepy

1) New York City has 11 letters
2) Afghanistan has 11 letters.
3) Ramsin Yuseb (The terrorist who threatened to destroy the Twin
Towers in 1993) has 11 letters.
4) George W Bush has 11 letters.
This could be a mere coincidence, but this gets more interesting:
1) New York is the 11th state.
2) The first plane crashing against the Twin Towers was flight number
11.
3) Flight 11 was carrying 92 passengers. 9 + 2 = 11
4) Flight 77 which also hit Twin Towers, was carrying 65 passengers.
6+5 = 11
5) The tragedy was on September 11, or 9/11 as it is now known. 9 + 1+ 1 = 11
6) The date is equal to the US emergency services telephone number
911. 9 + 1 + 1 = 11.
Sheer coincidence..?! Read on and make up your own mind:
1) The total number of victims inside all the hi-jacked planes was
254. 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.
2) September 11 is day number 254 of the calendar year. Again 2 + 5 + 4
= 11.
3) The Madrid bombing took place on 3/11/2004. 3 + 1 + 1 + 2 + 4 = 11.
4) The tragedy of Madrid happened 911 days after the Twin Towers
incident.
Now this is where things get totally eerie:
The most recognised symbol for the US, after the Stars & Stripes, is
the Eagle. The following verse is taken from the Quran, the Islamic
holy book:
"For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle.
The wrath of the Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah and lo,
while some of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for
the wrath of the Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was
peace."
That verse is number 9.11 of the Quran.
Still uncovinced about all of this..?! Try this and see how you feel
afterwards, it made my hair stand on end:
Open Microsoft Word and do the following:
1. Type in capitals Q33 NY. This is the flight number of the first
plane to hit one of the Twin Towers.
2. Highlight the Q33 NY.
3. Change the font size to 48.
4. Change the actual font to the WINGDINGS
Creepy isn't it?

hello reality. good bye fantasy.

and counting...

Only one 2 more days of classes and then finals.  I\'ve figured out that my chances of gettin A\'s is prety slim.  Which is pooie. But I\'ll deal. Anyway... I feel like i\'m on a rollercoaster of emotion lately. Kinda like bein in a glass case of emotion (haha) I need school to be over so I have one less thing to think about.

what's coming to me

and so it begins...

my mind is moving a million miles a minute and i'm so exausted both mentally and physically.  plus I have a test tomorrow that I can't seem to make myself study for.  help.

hurting someone you love is the hardest thing in the world...

just get me through the next 2 weeks....

no more thinking

This weekend was fun. Skiin Sat with Haase and the family was mucho funo.  Cold, but the snow was nice.   Last night was the Nickel's christmas party. Lots of food and more alcohol than I have ever seen in one house before. So much fun though.  Including lots of drunken teachers and drunken twister till 4 in the morning. 

I'm thinking to much into things once again.  And I need to stop overthinking everything.  I know what I want.  And I know what I have.  Sometimes though the smallest thing effects you in a way you wouldn't expect.

Now for homework. Maybe that will keep my mind off things for a while.

home

Headed home till Sunday.  then there will be a shitload of work to do all week and finals the week after.

Fuck Foleys.

I'm bored outta my mind.